New years eve beeotches. =D

Okay so we all know New years eve is my favorite.

For several reasons.

1. PARTAYYY.
2. Staying up late.
3. I met Jasper New years eve (yeah thats for those of you who know about that. *megan* =D)
4.PARTAYYY.

Need I say more?

Lol. Love ya'll.

Slowly rising to my potential and loving life.

So I was sitting and thinking about what life has to offer me, because about a month ago I was moping around complaining about everything and how unhappy I was, but ive realized how rediculous it is to live like that. I was the only thing stopping myself from being happy. It was all in my head. I'm the happiest now than ive ever been. Without any guy(wich was on my mind 24/7). It was ruining my life. I was so stupid. I lost friends over stuff that was all in my head. and im soo sick of it. All of december I've been working on it though. and im finally better. =D

OHH IM NO ONES WIFE BUT OHHH I LOVE MY LIFE AND ALLL THAT JAZZZ. =D

65 days till my life is completed.

So today it was confirmed that for my birthday present my mom is getting me tickets to see rent when it comes to detriot. I am going to die. For several reasons:

1. Adam Pascal and Anthony Rapp ((two of the obc members and my idols)) are performing. =D
2. I get to stage door so i basically get to be face to face with my idols.
3. Im going to ask them to hug me.
4. Im seeing Rent. Wich has changed my life dramatically.
5. My Rent loving best friend is going to come with me. Possibly.


So in exactly 65 days my life will be complete. I forever owe my parents. Because without this musical i wouldnt be the person I am today. and oh god im crying. =D

Trapped.

Sometimes i wish i could just fly far far away in live somewhere else. I dont like Michigan at all. I dont like small towns. I want to go to a big city. ((no not detriot thats still in michigan.)) I feel trapped here. i dont like it.

Lord knows he aint got the smarts.

Okay so I know that everyone gets frusturated sometimes but theres no need to make other people feel bad especially when its you doing it! AGH.

Also. My life feels like a musical more and more lately...hmm.


I cant wait for christmas. I love christmas. Dont really know what to blog about today...=/




Love love love love love.

mmmhmmm.

Okay. I'd like to say that i never thought that i would be able to ACTUALLY do solstice without freaking out and i did and then to hear people tell me that i did an amazing job. It made me really happy to know that. =D

Also. You know what sucks big chicken ass? SCHOOL. I hate it. I used to love school and never want to come home....but something ruined it for me. D= now all i want to do is come home.

Also. I need good fanfic ideas cuz im all out. =D so if anyone has any please telll meee. no i will not write lemons. but i like all pairings so that doesnt matter.


love love love love love.

I cant do it alone.

Okay so were all well aware that I missed the dance cuz i had the stomach flu wich pissess me off to no end.

Also...I'm sorry i havent updated.

I dont really have anything to blog about. D=

Although id like to say that I'm making a concious effort to not piss people off. wich i found out im very good at. and im not proud of that. =D

love love love love.

One night yeah one more time.

So tom. night is snowball. and imm reeaaalllyyyy excited. =D

I totally am going to be the bell of the ball. I have the cutest get up EVER. you dont even understand. THERE JAWS WILL DROP. =D

also. sorry i havent been updating. D=

Im sickkkk.

One day they'll all see.

One day they'll all see what I do isnt to be mean or hurt its to help them. I only try to help them. Not hurt them. I believe in tough love and thats what i give out. In the end they'll all thank me.


Now on a lighter note:

I got invited to the CSLC (congresssional student leadership conference) wich is a summer program for students who excell in acedemics. In the program you get to choose like a path of your choice ((I'm choosing Theatre Arts)) and you get to explore that path at a college level. =D

Im soooo excited and honored to be invited. =D

Quote of the day:
Good things happen to those who care.

Lalala.

Okay so today was good. =D

Im getting really excited for several things:

Solstice (sp?)

Auditions. ((I live for auditions. they are my life.))

And Christmas. =D

And since I asked yesterday but NO ONE responded I'll ask agian:

What are your views on Interacial relationships?

=D

Christmas time is here.

God I love Christmas.

It's my favorite time of the year.

Also. I learned something new about myself today. If you care to find out then ask. =D


What do you all feel about interacial relationships. I think this is going to be the topic for a while. =D

Its the most wonderful time of the year. =/

Well. Christmas time is here agian. and its my favorite time of the year and all. but this year im busy like every freaking day. =/

Also. To my dear friend whom ive seemed to piss off. Im sorry i guess. I told you i didnt really mean it. It just came out wrong? Yeah it also hurts when you try to use sarcasm and make me feel stupid 'have you ever heard of if you dont have anything nice to say dont say anything at all?' yeah of course i have. Im not an idiot. I'm not trying to make you angrier by saying this. Just trying to explain to you how i feel and that i didnt really mean to say most of what i said. So Im sorry. =/

Now that Im done with that I'd also like to say that I cant stand Racist people. They anger me. >:O

Also. I think that there is more to me than people know about. Im not some little girl you can walk all over. If ya'll think that tell me and ill personally slap who ever told you that.

HOLY CHEESE PUFFS.

Dude. My song for solstice is amazing.

If i died singing that song i'd be content. =D

Megans coming....over. Jesus you people are dirty minded. =P


So how was everyones day?

I have a new theory on life.

This theory is :

If i stop trying so hard things will just happen like there supposed to.


Does that sound right? I really want your opinions cuz im sick of being hurt and giving effort for nothing.

Thank you.

Darkness turns to light.

Today was good. Very good.

by the way i was to busy ranting yesterday to remember to tell everyone that it was world aids day yesterday. =D

I kinda finally realized something today. I dont need a man to make me happy.

I'm kinda ignorant to this stuff. So it took me a while.

Also sorry I havent been doing quotes. Im having a lack of insparation lately.

have a lot of homework so i gtg. Maybe I'll blog again later.

Summer days come and fade.

Im sorry I havent blogged in a while. I was on vacation.

Do you ever wonder if people will ever learn? Ever understand? Ever change? Ever realize?

I do.

I try to tell them. How what there doing hurts me. Yet it hasnt changed and it probably never will because they refuse to try to change to make you happy.

I bet no one will catch what im talking about, but i dont care because it just needs to be said.

I feel like somewhere Ive lost something in them. Ive lost something because they've lost something. I wish I could get it back somehow but I wont because they refuse to change.

The end of a beginning and a beginning of an end.