When did it all change?

Suddenly I've had like roll reversal with everyone. I was always the weak one and they were all strong. I always broke down when they kept building up. I was the one that didnt know what to do when they always did.

Now its changed.

Why is it like this?

I cant even enjoy it because i know they all hurt....and i dont.

Where did I go wrong?

Secrets.

Me being the way I am and having this wierd caring instinct wich makes me care about everyone even if i dont really know them that well. has caused me stress lately.

because i know a some secrets that are like life threating if they get out....and i dont even know the kid.....but i care. alot.


Death by secret. =D Thats what I got. Its kinda a curse. =X =/

So its been a while...

So I havent blogged in a while.

A) because honestly there was TOO much going on to blog about.
B) because I wouldve cried if id tried to.

So I've changed for the better lately. But that involved some inner changes that were hard but with the help of friends (especially one. yes this is a shout out to YOU.) I've gotten better. I think now I can get through anything. One day I hope all this inner struggling will go away. Im sure it will but..hey were all going through it...were teenagers...sometimes finding yourself is hard.


Love love love.

Anyway you want it.

haha. Thats my theme song now. =D

I dont really know what to blog about today. hmmm. idk.